On the boundary of (yet another) locus of inflection

It's painfully obvious that I am not a consistent blogger. Indeed, most of my thoughts and ideas are selfishly kept for my own consideration. However, I always feel compelled to write when I am on the verge of great change - indeed, this entry is no exception.
I'm moving to China in a few days. Some may wonder why I am willing to leave the USA so that I may live in a place like China. To be honest, I believe that there's more opportunity and freedom of action in China. Things have been horrible in the United States.
Will I be sad to go? I can't say that I will be. I will regret leaving friends and family behind, but those who truly understand me will realize that this is in my best interests.
A LOT has changed within the last year. I am no longer content with sitting around in a land of limited opportunity. I want to travel to a foreign country, learn a new language, and enjoy the challenge of new stimuli that only a new environment can provide.

A re-examination of the circumstances surrounding my existence

Well, this update is a stark contrast to the optimistic conjecturing found in my last post.
For one, I am no longer engaged. I decided that I'm not ready for marriage, and that I couldn't handle another long-distance relationship.
I've become a recluse - and I spend my time studying mathematics and playing video games. It's a depressing and lonely existence. Though I have family close to me, I miss the connections I had with close friends. I miss the freedom with which I could act and think - if only I could leave, and be on my own again. Alas, that seems to be nothing but an outrageous fantasy!
Hopefully, my next update will have something nice to report. Because the only message this update has to convey is one of desolation and boredom.